New Adventure

Since I don't have a job, STILL, I'm going to cancel my gym membership because I don't have a lot of money left for them to keep taking out every month. I am doing a 90 day challenge at this place called Pole Waxers University in Marietta. Its a one time fee of $50 bucks for the 90 day weight loss challenge. Sounds very fun. Its Cardio Pole Dancing classes 3x's a week for 90 days and at the end of 90 days whoever loses the most weight and inches wins MONEY, Hello!!!! Sounds totally awesome. Me and a friend are going to do it together. Its a great strength training workout and does wonders for your upper body and abs, which is definitely what I am trying to target. And another interesting fact, they teach you how to booty pop. LOVE IT!!!! Will definitely help me when I go to the clubs, LMAO!

Just thought I'd update ya'll since I haven't posted in about a week or so.... So that's what's going on with me!

Life Change

I've been entertaining this idea for awhile now and even tried it but kinda chickened out after the headaches kicked in from my body getting use to the change.

I don't deal well with headaches at all. I've dealt with a lot of migraines since I started Depo for the first time when I was a sophomore in high school and that is when I started gaining weight. I was a size 11/13 when I was a sophomore and then a year later I was a 16/18, so I had gained at least 50 lbs in that year due to the Depo and that is where my story all started.

Ok so now back to my Life Change... I am entertaining the idea of becoming a vegetarian. There are soooo many more options now than ever for vegetarians now. One of my best friends is a vegetarian and when I spent a week with her one summer I ate everything she ate and it all tasted like regular meat. I've even bought vegetarian Italian Sausages before and it was really good in my scrambled eggs. Vegetarians are some of the healthiest people, and its not just me saying that you can look it up if you don't believe me. Some people think you can't get enough protein if you're a vegetarian, well I beg to differ with you there. Beans are a great source of protein and so is soy meat and tofu, I'll admit I'm not a fan of the tofu at Moe's but I don't have to get meat when I go to Moe's because they have so many veggies to load up on and black beans have protein so I'm good there. I wouldn't stop eating fish though if I become a vegetarian and I wouldn't cut out my dairy because I need the Omega's and Calcium because the Depo I'm on eats away at your bones and causes Osteoporosis, which is a downside but I think no periods and not being able to ovulate while on the shot outweigh the osteoporosis thing for me. But yea so that's my Life Change I'm thinking about and haven't quite decided what to do.

A Sad Day

Well, I just found out that the girls are starting daycare next week, not because I'm a bad babysitter but because their dad got promoted and became a federal employee and they offer FREE daycare. So, tomorrow is my last day watching the girls and starting over looking for a job. Luckily, my refund is on its way so that will keep a little money in the bank for a little while at least. I have plans to move into an apartment in May with my friend Vanessa. We are going job hunting together on Friday and hopefully we find something soon. I can't take this anymore. Every job I find either doesn't last but a month if that or they look at my job history and don't want to hire me. Why don't people believe in giving second chances? Now that I know the negative impact that calling in all the time has on me, I wouldn't do it anymore if someone would just give me a chance. I think I'm just going to start over on Monday with the eating right and exercise. I just feel too bad right now, plus the girls have made me sick. They were sick last week and this week too so now I have a fever and a sore throat, WONDERFUL! Well just wanted to update people. I won't be blogging on my weight loss or gain this week unless something incredible happens, doubt it!

Weigh In....2/6/2010

OK, so I'm back on track now. Finally back to 203.5 again! Its been forever it seems and very frustrating just getting back to this weight. Its been I'd say about 2 or 3 months since I've been this low on the scale. So 1 pound for this week is going in the right direction. Hopefully next week will be another pound or more. I found this website that supports what the trainer and nutritionist at the gym told my mom and Tammy (From Fat to Fab) and I'm going to work with those cals and see what happens this week and hit the gym 5 days a week this week instead of my normal 3 days. Weight loss is very frustrating to me because I am not a patient person at all!!!! I know "Patience is a Virtue" but honestly I have none, AT ALL! Which is a lot of my problem in life, period. LOL! But anyways, I'm back on track and hopefully its all down from here.

Kandice

Unmotivated

I haven't been blogging because I never get comments which doesn't motivate me to blog. And I haven't been losing weight so I don't feel motivated to work out either.... : \

No matter if I eat good or not I still stay at the same freakin weight and its driving me batty!!!! I am at a loss of what to do and I have a wedding to go to in March and I'm still going to be a freakin cow! GAH!!!!! And to make matters worse my mom has made it to Onederland and I'm stuck in 200ville and can't go anywhere. I guess its a plus that I'm not gaining but I stay the same weight week after week and I'm really tired of it. I don't have the money to pay someone to tell me what I should and shouldn't eat or to give me an individualized workout plan to help me accomplish my goals so I'm kinda just stuck and hate it soooooo much!

Road Blocks and Speed Bumps

No matter how hard I try or want to I can't seem to jump on the weight loss wagon. I haven't weighed in so long and I'm honestly afraid to... I've been so frustrated with not being able to find a job and not having a car that I don't even feel like going to work out or anything. Don't have a workout buddy to keep me motivated because my best friend can't decide when she's going to start working out again either. And I can't stop eating!!! Its driving me crazy. No matter how much I try when I eat good foods I just am hungry all the time, even if I eat "filling" foods. Its just frustrating!

So 2010 is here...

I feel 2010 is going to be a good year for me and it started off great. I was the DD for New Years Eve and still had a blast with everybody. For my birthday I had a party at a bar in Atlanta, which was by far the best birthday I've ever had. All the most important people were there and that meant a lot to me. So now its back to square one with dieting and exercise. And I WILL get into a bikini this summer and I will look awesome in it, without losing my curves.

So today marks the 1st day of the Healthy New Me Challenge (which I made up by the way to get myself out of this stupid plateau I've been on since Thanksgiving!) . I have one bottle of Dr. Pepper left that I'm finishing and then its water, water, water. My mom went to the grocery store yesterday and bought all healthy foods so no more eating out. I have a few "resolutions" so to speak.

Diet/Weight loss Resolutions

1. I want to lose 50 lbs by June

2. Im going to exercise 2x's a day at least 3 days a week( going to shoot for 5 days but 3 days is the minimum and no less than that).

3. Drink more water

4. Not eat out so much

5. I want to take yoga/pilates/kickboxing class to relieve stress in my life.

Personal Resolutions

1. Be more positive

2. Become more confident in myself

3. Get a good steady job

4. Be happy for once and not just make everyone else happy

5. Make more time for "ME"