There is definitely a light at the end of the tunnel!!!

I finally have good news to report, I got a job and I made the Dean's List!!! Now I just need to get my weight loss back on track. I have a trainer, just need the money to pay him. LOL! Also, I'm going to start going to a free outdoor fitness camp on Saturdays and Sundays, that I don't work of course. I will have to wait til I get my schedule to totally know what my training schedule will be, waiting on the phone call to let me know when orientation is and then I'll be working. I will be working in the ladies shoe department working in the back room pulling shoes for customers, which I can only imagine how crazy that's going to get during the holidays.... EEK!!! But its definitely a job and is one step closer to moving out and paying my bills with no help. I did find an apartment and can't wait to move in. Just need to save up my pet deposit, first months rent, and security deposit. I'll have to wait and see how much I bring in with this job because I may need to get a 2nd job to make things work.

Speaking of making things work, I was doing some calculating and I found it totally insane that a SINGLE person needs an average of $1600 a month to live. That calculation includes; car note(if you don't have a car note then you still have upkeep expenses), insurance, car maintenance, rent, utilities, cable( I could live without cable but that's minus $35 for basic cable), Internet(which I do need for school so it is a necessity for me), groceries( and I'm like the queen of grocery shoppin because I can stretch a dollar; hello Kroger! LOL!), personal hygiene needs, if you have a pet then you include your pet's needs in there as well. I can't imagine if I had a kid or anyone else to take care of because just being single hits you in the wallet. All these are needs not wants and don't include gettin your hair or nails did or even paying for the gym. Most apartments have a free gym so that's an unneeded expense as well.

Well just thought I'd update on how I've been over the past few weeks and that things are definitely looking up!

Kandice

Why is it ok to eat fungus?

I was making a salad and realized that mushrooms are a fungus and it's ok to eat them. But mold is a fungus and it makes you sick. What's up with that? Not that I want to eat mold but there are so many things we eat that are in a "spoiled" state; sour cream and cottage cheese for example, yet when milk spoils it makes us cringe. Just thought it was weird. Thought it was weird I was eating fungus too, LOL!

Well, I was just randomly thinking while making my salad so I guess I'll go eat it now. LOL!

Toodles!

This is my yummy salad before I drenched it in ranch dressing. Seems to be the one thing I just can't give up. I love Ranch dressing though!

Feeling a little better

One job interview down and one to go! I made it through one interview and pending my background check I will have a job next week. I get paid daily and make my own schedule so I'm really loving that. Now, I just have to get through the Macy's interview on the 16th. If I get both jobs I'll be set and on a roll to move out on my own very soon. I'll also be able to start working out again. I have a friend who is a personal trainer and he's going to give me an awesome deal only down side is I'll be driving to Atlanta twice a week, but hell if I get the results he promises then I don't mind the drive. I don't plan on weighing for awhile until I start working out again. I'm kind of just taking things as they come right now and trying not to be depressed everyday. Its a struggle but I'm in a better place this week than I have been the past few weeks. Baby steps in the right direction.

Is it really gonna get better?

So people keep tellin me to hang in there that things will get better. To be completely honest, I don't believe that shit anymore! I officially regret ever leaving the hell hole in which I once worked, Wal-Mart, but I think I burned my bridges and probably have no chance of getting my job back there. The put down that I quit without notice, which isn't totally accurate, I did give notice just not "official written notice" and I hated my job with a passion there that I would make up excuses not to go into work. I know I suck but I guess it's true hindsight is definitely 20/20. So I've been out all morning getting applications and nobody seems to be hiring just "always accepting applications". Well that really doesn't help me out any, now does it? People keep applications on file for what, 30 days? If you're not going to be hiring anytime soon then why give someone a freakin application? I just don't understand these people logic. Its giving people false hope, seriously!

But anywho, thought I'd just vent a little and if one more person tells me everything will get better soon or it always get worse before it gets better, I'm going to have to extend my hand and slap them one good time! So I guess I'm done for now. Toodles!

Kandice