I'm alive but not quite back yet.

I wanted to let everyone know I am still alive but I am not officially back on track. I am sick with some kinda infection may it be strep or just something else. I'm too broke to go to the doctor and I don't have insurance so I'm just dealing with it for now with antibiotics and vitamins. 

I am moving Oct. 15, I finally am moving out on my own and will have a place to call my own. Hopefully I am better by then because I want to be able to enjoy my first days in my new apartment. Once I get over this illness I will definitely be back on track and working out again.

My challenge I did ended up being an epic fail and I let all of you down so I want to apologize for that. 

I did just get back from Arizona and I had a blast and now I've been sick ever since I got back, LOVELY!

I am exhausted and run down so I am going to bed now but I will begin blogging again very soon. Thanks to all those who sent me messages and who were concerned as to my where abouts. I appreciate it. 

Good night all.

I am fine everyone!

I have been working a lot and Im not at home, I've been staying with a friend and I sleep work and eat everyday and on the weekends I sleep ALOT. I'm just so exhausted I haven't had time to post lately. I am no longer doin my challenge but I will be in AZ Sept 17-20, fat or a lil skinnier whichever it may be who knows. Lol. I am alive but don't know when I'm gonna start blogging again. I have been reading the blogs tho and everyone is doing a great job.

Weighing in today instead of tomorrow

Ok I am weighing in today instead of tomorrow because I am about to work a 12 hr shift and won't get off til 4am and then go back at 12pm tomorrow. It's been a crazy week. Will update everyone soon but I need to head to work. My weight this morning/afternoon was 206.5 which is a 6.5 lb loss from the last time I weighed. Yay! Ok off to work I go. Love yall and keep up the good work.

I really am still here everybody!!!!!

I am so sorry for letting everyone down for the past month. I have been super busy with this new job. I am now on a permanent position so the transition has been crazy with training and everything and I also have family in town so I'm eating like crazy. I will weigh in friday once I've had a chance to get settled with my schedule for work. I'll be working a lot of over time this coming week so I won't be online much at all! The challenge is definitely still on ladies and again I am sorry for deserting everyone. 

My current weight is 213 so I'm back to the beginning again. I need to continue this challenge because I am going to Arizona Sept 17-20 for my best friends birthday and I don't wanna look like a fat cow in pictures. LOL.

Well ladies I will try to comment this weekend but like I said I have family in town and have a really busy weekend planned out. Hope everyone has a lovely weekend. Good luck next week ladies, I know its getting close to the end.

IM BACK!

Ok sorry to all my challengers, I have been slackin these past 2 weeks. I have been really tired from startin this new job that I usually come home and pass out and don't get up til its time for work the next day. I haven't been eating right at all. I only have 30 mins for lunch and 15 of that 30 consists of going and gettin my car from the parking lot and parkin on site at work since we can't park there until after 5. I am usually stuck goin to a fast food place close to work or just eatin crackers. I am going to try and catch up on the blogs and weigh ins and we will get back on track since the challenge is half way over already. Wow, time flies!

I'm still around

I didn't weigh on Friday, just didn't feel like it. I went out Friday night to a friends house party. All I can say is WOW! I don't think I'll be partying like that for awhile. I ended up having bruises on the better part of the left side of my body and I feel like my back is about to go out again, so I'm kinda babying my back for the rest of the weekend before I start working next week. I did record everyone's weight who posted their weights on Friday or Saturday. I'll try and get around to commenting everyone tomorrow or Monday. Thanks everybody.

No Scale Pic Today! Boo :( Weigh In!

No scale pic today! I weighed 208 this morning so that is a loss of 1.5, I'm likin the numbers goin down!!!

No real news to report so I just wanted to post my weight and comment you guys!

Good news- All but 3 people have done their posts this morning but Tammy said she wouldn't be weighing in this week so I know about her. Lol.

Bad news- 6 Challengers have dropped out already and its only been 4 weeks. How sad!

Exciting News Be on the Look Out!!!!

Everyone be on the look out for Tammy's newest blog she has some exciting news for everyone and I'm sure she has been dancing around her living room since she found out!!!!

Thank you everyone for all the Congratulations on the new job! I really do appreciate it. I've very thankful this opportunity came along. Next plan is to save for a car and place to live! I feel very good now and this challenge is going to be a great journey for me. I need to get down 9 lbs in the next 2 weeks or so. I want to be into the 180's when this challenge wraps up in 2 months. Better get my butt in gear if I'm going to get there by the end of the challenge.

Awesome Monday!!!

So I went to my interview this morning and....... I GOT IT!!! I start June 28. It is a temporary job for now but if I do a good job then I could get hired on by one of their permanent projects. I'm in a good mood today to say the least.

On another note, some of you were confused by the mention of me saying you could email me your weight loss for the week. To clear that up I meant that if you're NOT going to be able to post on Friday just send me an email or comment to let me know. Also, if you would rather email me your weight loss instead of doing a post then you can do that. I did not mean you had to email, comment and do your post. Sorry for the confusion.

This is going to be a good week.

2010 Challengers ATTENTION!!!

I really hate to be a bitch but if you don't weigh in for 2 consecutive weeks then I'm going to assume you aren't serious and just take you off the list for the challenge. ( UNLESS YOU HAVE TOLD ME IN ADVANCE THAT YOU WON'T BE WEIGHING IN, THAT'S DIFFERENT!) I still have 9 people who haven't weighed in this week. One person is coming close to being cut from the challenge, you know who you are. I did this challenge to motivate me and everyone else and if you're not weighing in or doing weekly posts or contacting me by email to let me know your progress then I don't think you're serious and that makes me sad. I try my hardest to get around to all 22 people and leave comments every week. All of you know about everything going on in my life because I blog openly just as Tammy does so, there is no reason for you to not at least shoot me an email to tell me your weight on Fridays. So I hope everyone has a great weekend and everyone who hasn't weighed in need to! Keep up the good work.

Weigh In Week 3 - 6/11

So it's been 3 weeks since we started this challenge and its taken me awhile to get on track but DAMNIT I DID IT! Lol. So I can't say that I have eaten the best this week but I will have you know that my body did not like some of the food I ate and it let me know it real quick. I felt as though my body was saying, " This is not suppose to be in here, ABORT ABORT ABORT!" Everytime I would eat anything that was not 'Healthy' so to speak.

It was a very painful process I must say but I'm glad my stomach is shrinking and won't allow me to eat as much as I use to. I did manage to go work out this week. I went to the gym Tuesday I believe it was, we only stayed for 25 minutes and all I did was walk on the tredmill but I was sweatin like a pig. I made sure to get up into cardio level the first 15 mins and then I went down to fat burning level for the rest of the time. I made sure to switch between 10 incline and 0 incline every 5 minutes which got me sweatin even more. Lol. So I'm sure even one workout helped in my loss this week.

I have some news about my job that I will share at the end of this but I will say I am very very pissed with my boss right now and I am seeking other opportunities. I haven't left yet!

Ok, onto the weigh in!

So my weight this morning which I am VERY shocked at is 209.5. That is down 2.5 from last week. YAY ME!!! I am finally going down in the numbers and I am soooo happy!

So I was shocked at this weight because I was very bad yesterday.

I had McDonald's for lunch- 10 pc nugget with BBQ sauce, Large fry, and a Large sweet tea

I had El Nopal for dinner- rice, chicken, shrimp drenched in queso cheese and a sweet tea.

So as you can see I am very surprised I didn't gain from all that sodium, especially those Mickey D's fries, Oh Dear Lord!

Hopefully that means an even bigger loss this week since I'm going to try and flush all that out this week by drinking only water. That is a HUGE problem for me. I just don't feel satisfied by water, it just leaves me feeling thirstier than I was before. I never feel like my thirst has been quenched and it doesn't taste good at all. I'm a sugar addict and I will gladly admit it. When it comes to sweets I'm googley eyed and salavating the entire time. Lol.

Onto my horrible job, if you can call it that. 

My boss has left me no choice but to seek other employment options because she only scheduled me 4 hours last week and I have 8 hours this week. I realize I'm not a part time associate and I am labeled as "on call" but damn dude! 

People tell me I'm lucky to have a job but they don't see that it's not really even a job. I live in Kennesaw and work in Smyrna/Atlanta for those of you who are from GA and know how far that is, its not worth my gas to drive there to work for 4 hours 1 or 2 days a week. Now, if I was working all week for 4 hours that would be different. I don't even bring home $100 a week. That is sad. There is no way that is considered a job, AT ALL!!!! Therefore, I am seeking other opportunities. At first I felt like I'd betray them somehow if just left because I've only been there a month. I worked really hard to even get in the door there. When I went for my initial interview in beginning of March, I was offered a position and was super excited. Well, I called every other day to find out when I was going to start only to find out that my position wasn't open yet that they were waiting for someone to leave before I could start. Well, 5 weeks went by, as I continued to call them every other day, until I found out anything. They decided to offer me another position until mine opened up so I was happy to finally come in and start orientation. Then nobody could tell me when I started working. So basically, I've gotten the run around from Macy's this whole time and don't really know what to do. I have legal issues and have somehow managed to pay my lawyer all but $450 but working 4-8 hours a week isn't gonna get him paid off any sooner and my court date is coming up soon and all the has to be paid before I go to court. 

On a good note, I do have an interview with a Temp Agency on Monday to see if they can help me find a job. I told them I was willing to take any job as long as it wasn't a warehouse job. I am just not made for that kind of work. Lol. 

Well, I look forward to seeing everyone's weight losses throughout the day and everyone have a great weekend and good luck next week as we close out week 4 of the challenge!

Hope everyone enjoys the music on the blog as they read. LOL.

I think I got it together now

I know I've been somewhat absent from Blog-land for the past week or so and I'm sorry. I will try to catch up on everyone's blog and comment. A lot has happened since I started this challenge. I just broke up with my boyfriend. I had been talking wedding and babies with him BUT something just changed that kind of urked me. I'm not sure what exactly it was but a week of no phone calls set it off. So that ya'll don't think I'm insane here's the story.

My (ex) boyfriend lives in Macon which is 96 miles one way from me and we go like 2 months at a time without seeing each other and then we get like 1 freakin day to spend together when we do see each other. Both of us are on cars which can only be driven around town and NOT long distances. That presents the problem of not seeing each other very often. Basically, the phone is all we have. He had been talking about joining the Air Force and getting married and me going with him. It sounds good but in reality I think it scared the crap out of me after I took it all in. Also, if we hadn't gotten married I don't know if I could wait 3 yrs for him to MAYBE come home without him being sent somewhere else. He really ticked me off when he went 5 days without talkin to me. To some of you I'm sure you're like wtf 5 days is nothing but when the phone is all you have it becomes a big deal. So my beef was that when I questioned him about it he acted like it wasn't a big deal. To me when someone calls it means they are thinking about you and want to talk to you. Well, not calling me even though he's outta town with family, to me says he doesn't care enough or isn't thinking about me while he's gone. And being too busy isn't an excuse you can always send a short text to let someone know you're thinking of them. So that was my breaking point and I do love him to death but I just can't take the distance.

So all that, once I got it off my chest made me feel free and motivated to start working out again. I just felt a huge relief after I took care of that. So I just downloaded 35 new songs to add to my already long workout playlist on my iPod. I'm ready to go! This Friday WILL show a LOSS!

I'm still pissed about my job but hopefully something better will come along soon.

I leave you with a quote I found on a friends facebook page.

I've learned that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover
it up; it simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up, it means accepting that some things weren't meant to be.

Weigh In... 6/4

Sorry for the late post. Got a lot on my mind right now but I couldn't get the scale pic but I am the same at 212.5 which I am just fine with after my horrible week of eating or lack there of. I was either eating too much or not eating at all but whatever. Things are going to be rough this week due to low funds, so I can't really go grocery shopping. But I will make the best of it.


Still waiting for a few of you to weigh in! 

A little appreciation to my Challengers!

So I made a new badge and I am giving it to everyone of my Challenge participants! Yay for surprises! LOL. I know at least a few of us including myself have had a rough couple of weeks or maybe even months. Everyone can add it to their profile if they would like or you can give it to anyone you think needs a little boost. I need a BIG boost! So thanks to everyone who joined the challenge.

DON"T FORGET TO WEIGH TOMORROW!


I took a peek at the scale today and was VERY surprised at what I saw, considering the week I've had and lack of exercise. But next will be better, we can't dwell on things that are beyond our control. So good luck everyone!

Taking Some Personal Time....

..... until Friday's weigh in that is. I more than likely won't post anything or comment until Thursday to remind everyone of Friday's weigh in and then to post my weight and comments on Friday. I have a lot going on right now that I can't talk to anyone about so I'm being eaten alive by it. I can normally talk to my mom but its not the same as venting to my best friends which one is in Arizona and the other in Louisianna so you can see my dilemma. And my boyfriend is in Macon and I have no car or money so he can't physically be here for me either, so its very hard for me to deal with things through JUST talking about them. I need some sort of physical support here and I don't have that right now. I just need this time to destress and I will try my best to stay on track this week. I didn't expect anything like this to affect me so much but it has and it seems everytime I take on a challenge something comes up to interfere. Just letting everyone know whats up. See ya'll next week. Good luck this week.

Kandice

For Your Added Enjoyment!

I have added a playlist in my sidebar so everytime you visit my page you will get to jam to some of my favorite songs I like to workout too! So enjoy and if there's any songs you would like me to add just let me know!

Day 5- Weigh In ( How did I pull that one off?)

My camera on my phone is being retarded so I'm not able to post my scale picture right now but when I get back from my job interview I will see what's going on.

To my surprise I weighed 212.5 this morning for a loss of .5 which after this whole week craving crap and eating everything I craved seems amazing to me. LOL.

This weekend shouldn't be too bad until we have the cookout at Tammy's (dun dun dun). I love to eat and my whole life that's how my family celebrated everything was with food. It just comes naturally to eat when we're happy, sad, angry, upset, frustrated. 

I will take the loss and keep on trekin!

Next week will definitely be better and the scale will tell and hopefully I take more pictures this week because I seem to forget to take them a lot because I'm not use to doing it all the time but will try harder this week to keep myself accountable and I don't forget my calories.

Off to my job interview, wish me luck and go over to Tammy's blog @ From Fat to Fab and wish her luck also, she was signing up with a Temp Agency today. 

I'll talk to everyone later and just a reminder:

DON'T FORGET TO POST YOUR WEIGH IN TODAY!!!

Day 4- REMINDER!

Just wanted to remind everyone that tomorrow is the first weigh in of the challenge! I'm not feeling to confident here goin into the first weigh in, I've had a horrible week. I am bloated, craving crap, not really sweet stuff either just stuff like Moe's and I've been craving a big fat greasy cheeseburger and have not gotten one yet. LOL. I did make brownies last night and had 2. I figure I should just eat it and get it out the way. Though some good news is I weighed exactly the same this morning with no food as I did when I got home after eating all day. Which either means I am exactly the same or I lost a little. So I'm hoping for the best in the morning and I also have an interview for a 2nd job tomorrow afternoon so I'm hoping that goes well because I definitely need extra money because Macy's is kinda bullshittin me around right now. Ok well see everybody tomorrow at weigh in!

Kandice

Day 2

Today's food definitely wasn't great but I don't feel guilty eating it because I'm cramping and about to start my period so I'm craving CRAP! It happens I just have to move on from it and take it one day at a time. Today I was starving and got to work super early so my mom and I scraped our pennies together and went to McDonald's across the street from my work. I added all these into my calories, though I didn't take pictures of my breakfast or the Rice Crispy Treat the vending machine threw at me. LOL.

Here's the damage:

Breakfast- McDonald's Chicken and Cheese Bagel (500 calories)
Large Sweet Tea- 230 cals

Lunch- A Club Lite w/ Low Fat Honey Mustard and Fruit from Jason's Deli

Sandwich- 515 calories

Fruit- 90 calories

                                                           

Sweet Tea- ??????

Dinner- El Nopal Special (chicken, shrimp, on rice, drenched in cheese dip)

I'm guessing with as much cheese as that has on it its around 1,000 calories. I don't really know.

I wasn't really worried about todays calories, its definitely going to take me a week to get back on track so I'm not freaking out this first week since it's been so long since I've had a structured diet. I've been eating better and that's what counts. I'm trying to get the water back in my diet. Also, my aunt flew in from Wyoming today so we went out to eat with her(her treat because we are broke as a joke)! 

All in all it was a good day!

Kandice

Day 2- Motivational Video

Since the week is just beginning and I know its been a rough start for myself I thought I'd post a video to get everybody in the mood to handle this week. This is also a GREAT song to add to your iPod or MP3 player for workout jams. So enjoy and I will be back later to post my calorie count and pictures for the day!

Kandice

Day 1- Summer Challenge 2010!

I'm still waiting for the rest of my people to weigh in, I had a surprising number of people join the challenge. I had 14 people join the challenge thank to Tammy at From Fat to Fab's word of blog! LOL. I was expecting it to just my mom, Tammy and myself on this journey but I actually got people to join. YAY! So I am still waiting for everyone to post their initial weigh ins. If you could just leave me a comment on here letting me know you posted that would be great because sometimes there are so many blogs posted I may miss it, especially if you don't post the little badge for the challenge on your post. Its just easier to spot with the badge.

Onto my day!

I weighed in this morning at 213, not my proudest weigh in but I will lose it I'm sure of it.

Well, it didn't go as well as I had expected for the first day. Shame on me for not packing my food last night or I wouldn't have been in the pickle I was in today, tomorrow I know better and not to eat as many calories before my dinner because I may be going out to eat with my aunt but not really sure yet, she's visiting from Wyoming. Today I only got a picture of my scale and of my lunch. I was at work bright and early at 6am with no camera other than my phone and it doesn't take very good pictures of words so I can't remember the calories if I don't take a picture or write it down.

I did manage to grab a bottle of water on my way out the door this morning, so that was a plus. I don't normally eat breakfast because I just don't have time in the mornings but I stopped and got a banana at QuickTrip and ate it and had my bottle of water, which I refilled twice today so far that is (3) 16 oz bottles.

                                                           Banana- 62 calories

Today was Muffin Monday at work which happens every Monday! We have a wide variety of muffins but they aren't big muffins, I'd say small muffins in comparison to QuickTrip muffins. Well I had 2 of those muffins and I'd say they had about 200 calories each. One was blueberry and one was like a cinnamon apple, Maya and I couldn't quite figure out the flavor just that it was yummy! Lol.

                                                   2 muffins- guesstimating 400 calories?

For lunch when I got home I had a salad with chicken strips, black olives, kidney beans, mexi cheese, and ranch dressing.

                                                            Salad- 390 calories

For dinner I'm having Jambalaya, not sure on the calories I'll have to add them up and then come edit my post with the updated calories for today!

Jambalaya-443 calories
Sweet Tea- 120 calories? I'm guessing that because it was a big glass and it has 2 cups of sugar in the gallon. So not too sure on that but I'm gonna say its a safe bet that my total calories for today were about 1400-1450.


Tomorrow will definitely be a better day food wise for sure. I am packing everything tonight since I won't be home until late tomorrow night. Good luck everybody on your first week of the challenge!!!!

Kandice

CHALLENGE STARTS TOMORROW!!!

I think I got around to sending everyone a comment reminding them about the challenge but if I didn't I'm sorry, which is why I am posting this reminder on my blog. I hope everybody is excited about the challenge and I think everyone will do great!

Just a reminder, start weights are to be posted tomorrow then every Friday after that will be weigh ins! I hope everyone accomplishes their goals and stays focused throughout the challenge. If you fall off just get right back on track the next day.

See everyone tomorrow!!!

Kandice

I'm so excited I just can't hide it!!!

I'm getting so excited because people are actually joining my challenge.*squeal* When I have people joining me in something like this it motivates me much more than doing it alone, so I'm very confident going into this challenge next week. YAY! GO TEAM! LOL.




I never realize how sexual this song was but I like it. LMAO!


Kandice

ATTENTION! ATTENTION!

Tammy this is for you and my mom!

My mom found an awesome dress for her wedding today, so I'm excited for her. Then reality hit me that I will be wearing a Bridesmaid's dress in Oct so I really need to do this challenge I took the time to create. SO, I'M GOING TO KEEP MY BLOG OPEN A CONTINUE WITH MY CHALLENGE! It will start next Monday May 24 and will last through Aug 23. That seems like a long time but it will fly by just like the past 5 months have. My mom's wedding is in Oct so I will probably still stick with my challenge though the end of Sept. If anyone wants to keep going with me then feel free to. In case anyone didn't read the rules to the challenge I will repost them again in this post.

Anyone wanting to participate in the challenge has until Friday to leave a comment and let me know you want to join.

The challenge will be from May 24- Aug 23.

Now for the rules of the challenge. 

RULES:

1. Post the Challenge sticker on your page and also at the head of your post when you do your weekly weigh ins.

2. Start your first post by stating what you would like to accomplish  during this challenge whether it be a weight goal or an exercise goal.

3. You must weigh in every Friday(with the exception of your initial weigh in which will begin on Monday May 24) with a picture of your scale reading that weeks weight.

Winner will be determined by who loses the most weight.

(Also, people who state a goal and meet it during the challenge will win something as well.)

PRIZE:

Winners will win something special. Not sure what yet, when I think of it I will update this. I'm thinking I will treat the winner to a new outfit to show off their new self. Still in the thinking process but I think that's a good one.

Those are the rules for the challenge! 

 I also have a few other rules that I'm doing for myself for this challenge that I will post along with some pictures I made up to simulate me now and then me at my goal weight.

The picture on the left is me now at 210 and the one on the right is me at my goal 140. 

Now, I realize that I probably won't reach 140 before my trip in July but just to get into Onederland would be  awesome! I am looking forward to this challenge and I'm hoping I actually have people join the challenge and that I don't have to do it alone. Either way, I'm going to do it!

So here are some of the rules I'm setting for myself.

1. I have a goal to lose 20lbs at the minimum for this challenge.

2. I'm going to take pictures of my food, everything! 

(Yes, Tammy gave me this idea. I saw how well it worked for her so I am incorporating it into my challenge as well, for myself. If anyone else wants to do this feel free to but I know it will help me because I won't want to take pictures of bad foods to put on here.)

3. I will also post a picture of what my scale says each week. 

4. Even though I don't have a gym membership anymore, I'm going to start working out on Monday.

(Either on a friends buddy pass at the gym or around the neighborhood, there's quite a few hills in this neighborhood that I can take advantage of.)

5. I will be aiming for an hour of exercise daily.

(If I get in more then that's awesome, but I haven't worked out in a few months now so I'm starting with an hour as my goal.)

6. I will be counting my calories.

(I'm going to stay between 1500 and 1700 cals a day)

7. I will be cutting out ALL alcohol consumption for the duration of the challenge. Minus what I consume while in Arizona in August.

8. I will be drinking WATER WATER WATER!!!

(This is a really big thing for me because I am addicted to sweet tea!)

9. This is a big thing for me, so its going to be extremely hard to cut out of my diet but I'm going to do it. 

NO MORE POTATOES

(White starchy potatoes are not good for you and neither is adding cheese to them.)

SWEET POTATOES ARE FINE AND WILL BE ON MY DIET AS LONG AS THEY ARE PLAIN WITH NO BUTTER!!!

10. I will eat more fruits and veggies.

This goal is not just for the challenge but so that I can get in the habit of eating more fruits and veggies.

Well, there you have it!

I hope to get some people to join the challenge soon, look forward to seeing all of you succeed as well as myself.

One must eat to live and not live to eat.
       - Moliere

Kandice

Shutting Down!

So, I've decided to just shut down my blog. I went through the trouble of making rules for a challenge with no one wanting to join so I'm not very motivated now to even do my own challenge. Oh well! I just feel like I'm talking to myself and I can do that without typing so I'm shutting down the blog. Thanks to anyone who has read my blogs or commented. Its been a good time while it lasted.

Bye everybody!

Kandice

Challege Post-Poned

I wasn't able to start my challenge today due to my hectic schedule at work this week so for sure starting next Monday!! Plus side, I'm definitely getting plenty of exercise being on my feet 8hrs a day. My feet feel like they are going to fall off by the end of the day they hurt so bad. I end up going to the bathroom a lot the second half of the day just so I can sit down and take my shoes off for a minute. No I don't take my shoes off while on the toilet, LOL. I work at Macy's so they have a lounge with chairs and couches.

That's all for now. Gotta get to bed soon working at 6am tomorrow. I am NOT a morning person at all!

Kandice

600 Pound Mom Feels Very Sexy!

http://www.etonline.com/news/2010/03/85211/index.html

I saw this on a commercial and I didn't know what to say honestly! My jaw literally dropped when I heard this woman. I can not image wanting to GAIN weight and you're already 600 pounds, REALLY???? Its insane!!!

Summer Challenge 2010 Rules

Anyone wanting to participate in the challenge has until Monday to leave a comment and let me know you want to join.

Now for the rules of the challenge. 

RULES:

1. Post the Challenge sticker on your page and also at the head of your post when you do your weekly weigh ins.

2. Start your first post by stating what you would like to accomplish in the next 11 weeks during this challenge whether it be a weight goal or an exercise goal.

3. You must weigh in every Saturday with a picture of your scale reading that weeks weight.

Winner will be determined by who loses the most weight.

(Also, people who state a goal and meet it during the challenge will win something as well.)

PRIZE:

Winners will win a souvenir or something special from my trip to Arizona! If you're a winner and you have something in mind you would like from my trip let me know and I will try to make it happen for you.

Those are the rules for the challenge! 

Nothing too hard. I decided to do this challenge because I need to lose AT LEAST 20lbs before I go to Arizona so I can just fit into my cute clothes again. I also have a few other rules that I'm doing for myself for this challenge that I will post along with some pictures I made up to simulate me now and then me at my goal weight.

The picture on the left is me now at 210 and the one on the right is me at my goal 140. 

Now, I realize that I probably won't reach 140 before my trip in July but just to get into Onederland would be  awesome! I am looking forward to this challenge and I'm hoping I actually have people join the challenge and that I don't have to do it alone. Either way, I'm going to do it!

So here are some of the rules I'm setting for myself.

1. I have a goal to lose 20lbs at the minimum for this challenge.

2. I'm going to take pictures of my food, everything! 

(Yes, Tammy gave me this idea. I saw how well it worked for her so I am incorporating it into my challenge as well, for myself. If anyone else wants to do this feel free to but I know it will help me because I won't want to take pictures of bad foods to put on here.)

3. I will also post a picture of what my scale says each week. 

4. Even though I don't have a gym membership anymore, I'm going to start working out on Monday.

(Either on a friends buddy pass at the gym or around the neighborhood, there's quite a few hills in this neighborhood that I can take advantage of.)

5. I will be aiming for an hour of exercise daily.

(If I get in more then that's awesome, but I haven't worked out in a few months now so I'm starting with an hour as my goal.)

6. I will be counting my calories.

(I'm going to stay between 1500 and 1700 cals a day)

7. I will be cutting out ALL alcohol consumption for the next 11 weeks.

8. I will be drinking WATER WATER WATER!!!

(This is a really big thing for me because I am addicted to sweet tea!)

9. This is a big thing for me, so its going to be extremely hard to cut out of my diet but I'm going to do it. 

NO MORE POTATOES

(White starchy potatoes are not good for you and neither is adding cheese to them.)

SWEET POTATOES ARE FINE AND WILL BE ON MY DIET AS LONG AS THEY ARE PLAIN WITH NO BUTTER!!!

10. I will eat more fruits and veggies.

This goal is not just for the challenge but so that I can get in the habit of eating more fruits and veggies.

Well, there you have it!

I hope to get some people to join the challenge soon, look forward to seeing all of you succeed as well as myself.

One must eat to live and not live to eat.
       - Moliere

Kandice

Summer Challenge 2010

Ok so I said I was giving up BUT I am planning a trip to Arizona at the end of July and need to lose 20 lbs just to fit back into my current clothes!!! Insane I know. So I've made a banner as you can see..

I will post all the details of the challenge this weekend. I am jumping back on the wagon Monday and need all my supporters in order to do this. If you are interested in joining the challenge just post a comment here and I will let everyone know the details probably Saturday. Thanks to everybody who actually reads my blogs whether they be crazy or whatever. LOL.

Kandice

Stop Talkin All That Blah Blah Blah!

I'm suppose to be doing this Beach Challenge where I lose 10 lbs in 30 days and win a tacky beach souvenir but I haven't been doing so well on it, I'm almost back where I started.

I'm thinking about just giving up on losing weight, period. I mean my boyfriend likes me the way I am and diets or "lifestyle changes" and "healthy eating" are just boring to me. I only eat certain things and in order to lose weight I'd have to eat them everyday, who wants to eat the same thing ever dang day? Not me! I'm just very on the fence here and stressed and depressed and really don't know what to do....

I mean I LOVE to eat, which is how I got this big along with the help of the birth control shot, DEPO, and I don't know if I want to live like a rabbit just to be healthy. I'd lose what lil bit of booty I have if I lose the weight I want to lose so that is definitely a negative to this situation.

Confused very confused!

Not feelin this diet crap at all! I mean really, who came up with a diet anyways? Probably some doctor who put standards on what is and is not obese. How do they know what is really healthy? I don't have any medical problems and I'm just fine eating what I eat and maintaining my perfectly unhealthy weight.

I might not like shopping because clothes don't fit the way I want or they aren't the size I may want or as cute as I want but none of that matters to me at this moment. I'm happy with my boyfriend and focused on working, finally!

Well, I guess that's all for now. Toodles!

Kandice

Love this song!

I love this song, makes me not feel so bad about bein a big girl! I'm still really sick and since I pulled my back I haven't been able to exercise so I hope I have a decent loss next week.

So far today I've had:

Meal 1- Protein Shake( 1 scoop protein mix, 2 Tbs Peanut Butter, and 2 cups Vanilla Almond Milk) I love these shakes and they make you really full and keep you full.

Meal 2- Salad w/ lettuce, chicken strips, cheese, and ranch dressing.

Meal 3 will be some homemade BBQ Pork Tenderloin on a bun with a few chips.

My throat is pretty scratchy still so I'm not eating a lot bc it hurts my throat. Hopefully I'll feel better this week and can get in some exercise. I'm hoping to go to Macon Wednesday and if I do I won't be eating very good, its my boyfriends birthday.

I have to get my school work done before tonight so I'm going to get on it! I'll check in with everybody later this week!

Kandice

Snot for thought

Since I'm sick I figured I'd look up and see how many calories snot has in it; that seems to be most of what I'm ingesting more so than food. Well, nobody has an answer not even Web MD. I googled it and the question has been asked but nobody has a real answer. I need to know this so I can count every calorie whether it comes from my body or not. I did read though that little kids tend to pick and eat their boogers because your snot and boogers have something in it that is the same consistency as sugar in candies. Weird that our boogers have natural sugars in them but I can't find anything on calories. Yes, I'm aware that I come up with some odd posts but being sick makes you think about all the nasty in your body and stuff like that.

Oh and I weighed this morning and I'm down 3.5 lbs. Yay me!

Kandice

Pre- Weigh In

I had to take a peek at how much I was down so far this morning, couldn't wait til Friday, and its very good so far!!!

I can't wait to report on Friday!!

Absolute YUM!

Ok so I'm all about NOT depriving myself if I'm really craving something. I did just that, I ate a whole pint of Moose Tracks Ice cream. It was 760 cals, which is insane but I'm not going to fret over it. I'll just do better tomorrow. Nuff said. I will be down on the scale this week even if its only 1 pound. K. Just needed to post that splurge, so there it is. Tomorrow's a new day and we have to take things one day at a time. The End!

Kandice

There is definitely a light at the end of the tunnel!!!

I finally have good news to report, I got a job and I made the Dean's List!!! Now I just need to get my weight loss back on track. I have a trainer, just need the money to pay him. LOL! Also, I'm going to start going to a free outdoor fitness camp on Saturdays and Sundays, that I don't work of course. I will have to wait til I get my schedule to totally know what my training schedule will be, waiting on the phone call to let me know when orientation is and then I'll be working. I will be working in the ladies shoe department working in the back room pulling shoes for customers, which I can only imagine how crazy that's going to get during the holidays.... EEK!!! But its definitely a job and is one step closer to moving out and paying my bills with no help. I did find an apartment and can't wait to move in. Just need to save up my pet deposit, first months rent, and security deposit. I'll have to wait and see how much I bring in with this job because I may need to get a 2nd job to make things work.

Speaking of making things work, I was doing some calculating and I found it totally insane that a SINGLE person needs an average of $1600 a month to live. That calculation includes; car note(if you don't have a car note then you still have upkeep expenses), insurance, car maintenance, rent, utilities, cable( I could live without cable but that's minus $35 for basic cable), Internet(which I do need for school so it is a necessity for me), groceries( and I'm like the queen of grocery shoppin because I can stretch a dollar; hello Kroger! LOL!), personal hygiene needs, if you have a pet then you include your pet's needs in there as well. I can't imagine if I had a kid or anyone else to take care of because just being single hits you in the wallet. All these are needs not wants and don't include gettin your hair or nails did or even paying for the gym. Most apartments have a free gym so that's an unneeded expense as well.

Well just thought I'd update on how I've been over the past few weeks and that things are definitely looking up!

Kandice

Why is it ok to eat fungus?

I was making a salad and realized that mushrooms are a fungus and it's ok to eat them. But mold is a fungus and it makes you sick. What's up with that? Not that I want to eat mold but there are so many things we eat that are in a "spoiled" state; sour cream and cottage cheese for example, yet when milk spoils it makes us cringe. Just thought it was weird. Thought it was weird I was eating fungus too, LOL!

Well, I was just randomly thinking while making my salad so I guess I'll go eat it now. LOL!

Toodles!

This is my yummy salad before I drenched it in ranch dressing. Seems to be the one thing I just can't give up. I love Ranch dressing though!

Feeling a little better

One job interview down and one to go! I made it through one interview and pending my background check I will have a job next week. I get paid daily and make my own schedule so I'm really loving that. Now, I just have to get through the Macy's interview on the 16th. If I get both jobs I'll be set and on a roll to move out on my own very soon. I'll also be able to start working out again. I have a friend who is a personal trainer and he's going to give me an awesome deal only down side is I'll be driving to Atlanta twice a week, but hell if I get the results he promises then I don't mind the drive. I don't plan on weighing for awhile until I start working out again. I'm kind of just taking things as they come right now and trying not to be depressed everyday. Its a struggle but I'm in a better place this week than I have been the past few weeks. Baby steps in the right direction.

Is it really gonna get better?

So people keep tellin me to hang in there that things will get better. To be completely honest, I don't believe that shit anymore! I officially regret ever leaving the hell hole in which I once worked, Wal-Mart, but I think I burned my bridges and probably have no chance of getting my job back there. The put down that I quit without notice, which isn't totally accurate, I did give notice just not "official written notice" and I hated my job with a passion there that I would make up excuses not to go into work. I know I suck but I guess it's true hindsight is definitely 20/20. So I've been out all morning getting applications and nobody seems to be hiring just "always accepting applications". Well that really doesn't help me out any, now does it? People keep applications on file for what, 30 days? If you're not going to be hiring anytime soon then why give someone a freakin application? I just don't understand these people logic. Its giving people false hope, seriously!

But anywho, thought I'd just vent a little and if one more person tells me everything will get better soon or it always get worse before it gets better, I'm going to have to extend my hand and slap them one good time! So I guess I'm done for now. Toodles!

Kandice

New Adventure

Since I don't have a job, STILL, I'm going to cancel my gym membership because I don't have a lot of money left for them to keep taking out every month. I am doing a 90 day challenge at this place called Pole Waxers University in Marietta. Its a one time fee of $50 bucks for the 90 day weight loss challenge. Sounds very fun. Its Cardio Pole Dancing classes 3x's a week for 90 days and at the end of 90 days whoever loses the most weight and inches wins MONEY, Hello!!!! Sounds totally awesome. Me and a friend are going to do it together. Its a great strength training workout and does wonders for your upper body and abs, which is definitely what I am trying to target. And another interesting fact, they teach you how to booty pop. LOVE IT!!!! Will definitely help me when I go to the clubs, LMAO!

Just thought I'd update ya'll since I haven't posted in about a week or so.... So that's what's going on with me!

Life Change

I've been entertaining this idea for awhile now and even tried it but kinda chickened out after the headaches kicked in from my body getting use to the change.

I don't deal well with headaches at all. I've dealt with a lot of migraines since I started Depo for the first time when I was a sophomore in high school and that is when I started gaining weight. I was a size 11/13 when I was a sophomore and then a year later I was a 16/18, so I had gained at least 50 lbs in that year due to the Depo and that is where my story all started.

Ok so now back to my Life Change... I am entertaining the idea of becoming a vegetarian. There are soooo many more options now than ever for vegetarians now. One of my best friends is a vegetarian and when I spent a week with her one summer I ate everything she ate and it all tasted like regular meat. I've even bought vegetarian Italian Sausages before and it was really good in my scrambled eggs. Vegetarians are some of the healthiest people, and its not just me saying that you can look it up if you don't believe me. Some people think you can't get enough protein if you're a vegetarian, well I beg to differ with you there. Beans are a great source of protein and so is soy meat and tofu, I'll admit I'm not a fan of the tofu at Moe's but I don't have to get meat when I go to Moe's because they have so many veggies to load up on and black beans have protein so I'm good there. I wouldn't stop eating fish though if I become a vegetarian and I wouldn't cut out my dairy because I need the Omega's and Calcium because the Depo I'm on eats away at your bones and causes Osteoporosis, which is a downside but I think no periods and not being able to ovulate while on the shot outweigh the osteoporosis thing for me. But yea so that's my Life Change I'm thinking about and haven't quite decided what to do.

A Sad Day

Well, I just found out that the girls are starting daycare next week, not because I'm a bad babysitter but because their dad got promoted and became a federal employee and they offer FREE daycare. So, tomorrow is my last day watching the girls and starting over looking for a job. Luckily, my refund is on its way so that will keep a little money in the bank for a little while at least. I have plans to move into an apartment in May with my friend Vanessa. We are going job hunting together on Friday and hopefully we find something soon. I can't take this anymore. Every job I find either doesn't last but a month if that or they look at my job history and don't want to hire me. Why don't people believe in giving second chances? Now that I know the negative impact that calling in all the time has on me, I wouldn't do it anymore if someone would just give me a chance. I think I'm just going to start over on Monday with the eating right and exercise. I just feel too bad right now, plus the girls have made me sick. They were sick last week and this week too so now I have a fever and a sore throat, WONDERFUL! Well just wanted to update people. I won't be blogging on my weight loss or gain this week unless something incredible happens, doubt it!

Weigh In....2/6/2010

OK, so I'm back on track now. Finally back to 203.5 again! Its been forever it seems and very frustrating just getting back to this weight. Its been I'd say about 2 or 3 months since I've been this low on the scale. So 1 pound for this week is going in the right direction. Hopefully next week will be another pound or more. I found this website that supports what the trainer and nutritionist at the gym told my mom and Tammy (From Fat to Fab) and I'm going to work with those cals and see what happens this week and hit the gym 5 days a week this week instead of my normal 3 days. Weight loss is very frustrating to me because I am not a patient person at all!!!! I know "Patience is a Virtue" but honestly I have none, AT ALL! Which is a lot of my problem in life, period. LOL! But anyways, I'm back on track and hopefully its all down from here.

Kandice

Unmotivated

I haven't been blogging because I never get comments which doesn't motivate me to blog. And I haven't been losing weight so I don't feel motivated to work out either.... : \

No matter if I eat good or not I still stay at the same freakin weight and its driving me batty!!!! I am at a loss of what to do and I have a wedding to go to in March and I'm still going to be a freakin cow! GAH!!!!! And to make matters worse my mom has made it to Onederland and I'm stuck in 200ville and can't go anywhere. I guess its a plus that I'm not gaining but I stay the same weight week after week and I'm really tired of it. I don't have the money to pay someone to tell me what I should and shouldn't eat or to give me an individualized workout plan to help me accomplish my goals so I'm kinda just stuck and hate it soooooo much!

Road Blocks and Speed Bumps

No matter how hard I try or want to I can't seem to jump on the weight loss wagon. I haven't weighed in so long and I'm honestly afraid to... I've been so frustrated with not being able to find a job and not having a car that I don't even feel like going to work out or anything. Don't have a workout buddy to keep me motivated because my best friend can't decide when she's going to start working out again either. And I can't stop eating!!! Its driving me crazy. No matter how much I try when I eat good foods I just am hungry all the time, even if I eat "filling" foods. Its just frustrating!

So 2010 is here...

I feel 2010 is going to be a good year for me and it started off great. I was the DD for New Years Eve and still had a blast with everybody. For my birthday I had a party at a bar in Atlanta, which was by far the best birthday I've ever had. All the most important people were there and that meant a lot to me. So now its back to square one with dieting and exercise. And I WILL get into a bikini this summer and I will look awesome in it, without losing my curves.

So today marks the 1st day of the Healthy New Me Challenge (which I made up by the way to get myself out of this stupid plateau I've been on since Thanksgiving!) . I have one bottle of Dr. Pepper left that I'm finishing and then its water, water, water. My mom went to the grocery store yesterday and bought all healthy foods so no more eating out. I have a few "resolutions" so to speak.

Diet/Weight loss Resolutions

1. I want to lose 50 lbs by June

2. Im going to exercise 2x's a day at least 3 days a week( going to shoot for 5 days but 3 days is the minimum and no less than that).

3. Drink more water

4. Not eat out so much

5. I want to take yoga/pilates/kickboxing class to relieve stress in my life.

Personal Resolutions

1. Be more positive

2. Become more confident in myself

3. Get a good steady job

4. Be happy for once and not just make everyone else happy

5. Make more time for "ME"